Saturday, May 15, 2004
no, i havent updated. theres just so much to really wirte about that I don't wanna talk about and I just dont want to. i don't like lauren.. again. she's just.. ack. annoying. i wish she wouldnt always be like that
its incredibly annoying
we're reading anne frank in lit. its weird to think that maybe after a while.. thsi could be piblished. i dont think i'd enjoy it. id be pretty pissed. i dont want everyone to know my buiness. i;m going to write a book. i'm starting now. i'll post it later.
Thursday, April 22, 2004
it was red and yellow and green and brown and scarelt and bakc and ochre and peach and ruby and olvie and vilolet and fawn and lilac and gold and chocolate and mauve and cream and crimson and silver and rose and azure and lemon and russet and grey and purple and white and pink and orange and blue!
Thursday, March 11, 2004
i still dont know if i like him or not
okay.. lots has happened, but im lazy and tired so I'll summarize(kk)
today tiff says
"I just got outta bed, changed my shirt and I was done"
so I say "eww tiff, did u change ur underwear"
and she says "no.. i changed them before i went to bed"
and i thouhgt that was gross so she called me a b!tch but laura agreed and so did ally so i cant realy say Im wrong. i have fresh undies on now.. i shwer at nite(which was tiffs excuse) and i still change mine in the morning... eww if you dont
Tuesday, March 02, 2004
there has to be something wromng with me.. i ahte everything and nothing goes right for me.. im not suicidal.. but yeah... this whole school thing,, it sucks... i hate it all. eeccckk... this sucks.. a lot... i dont wanna go to school.. i wanna stay home and just throw up... i feel sick.. i need a nap
Lately, i think I'm going crazy.. its not PMS.. it's different... like woahh...
everybodys fighting.. its big tug of war.. i don't know if i like him.. or if a different he likes me...and a friend is convinced that the different he likes her.. but im unsure... i feel out of place amongst all of them as I could really talk less about this and more about other things but i have no other firends on my team... im stressed about testing next week too...I guess i feel weird. its springlike here where I'm at and i love that.. its reminding me of summer and I'm sorta sad becasue i reminiscing about all the fun times that I've had... especialy with my dad over the summer and my friends and how much i love them all but idk...i feel ehh and about 10 people just imed me and im soo busyt and stressed but auditions went well so ttyyl
Sunday, February 29, 2004
i think i like him... i wish i knew but i don't... i think i do.. i think i dont.. i wish HE was mine.. i wish he WASN'T mine
Sunday, February 22, 2004
please dont im her!!!!!
anyway.. now ally n laura think i like billy becasue of an inside joke they dont understand becasue.. SHOCK... i didnt invite them wit me to da mall. And she keeps bragging abt her @ boyfriernds, which arent even real. Tiffany n me dont b-lieve about the ine in JAckson and I dont think elijah likes her.. Im not jelous becasue elijah used to like me, not to brag and I guess it sounds like that.. sorry..
heres last nitez convo..
(ally n elijah)
elyijah: what u doin
ally: i was watching Dickie Roberts former child star...but now im talking to the lovely you:)
eylijah: thanks dont make me blush:-[
ally: lmao...but cmon ur pretty awesome
elijah: thanks so r u
ally: but @ the same time...go on!!
elijah: man i am beat
elijah: i had a basketball game and i am whooped
now for the good stuff:
BScene INC: i gotta send u sumthin
BScene INC: i did
BScene INC: did u get it
BScene INC: hmmmmmm
Superainbowbrite: i think he likes you
BScene INC: he does.... we talked bout it
Superainbowbrite: can i tell laura?
BScene INC: i sent her the convo alreasy
BScene INC: but we s odo lyke eachother
Superainbowbrite: did he say that or was it the casual breezy thing
BScene INC: wut?
Superainbowbrite: like Did he say that or was it the " maybe" but really yes thing
BScene INC: i asked him if he lyked me and he said that i was expecting a certain answer and i told him i lyked him and he said he lyked me 2
BScene INC: i know...go ahead n b jealous
Superainbowbrite: im not
BScene INC: every 1 is......do u have 2 bfs???
Superainbowbrite: no and i dont want 2 boyfriends
Superainbowbrite: i think thats mean
Superainbowbrite: to both
BScene INC: i know...im gunna dump 1 eventually
BScene INC: my 1st bf knows wuts goin on
BScene INC: i got these weird hone calls last nite
BScene INC: phone*\
Superainbowbrite: really? what happend?
BScene INC: it played music
Superainbowbrite: mee too
Superainbowbrite: what song? mine was TOXIC
Superainbowbrite: it was my cellie too
Superainbowbrite: it wasrted like 10 minutes
BScene INC: i got lyke a virgin
Superainbowbrite: cuzza ur sound
Superainbowbrite: i thought it was tiffany
BScene INC: idk......it was weird
Superainbowbrite: but then ire alized she was with you
BScene INC: i know...did u get only 1
Superainbowbrite: as messages
Superainbowbrite: i was in dance, so my phone was on silent
BScene INC: 000
BScene INC: wut was the otha 1
Superainbowbrite: same song
Superainbowbrite: u can oly leave a certain length, so the second was the song..contuinued
BScene INC: o0o0o0
BScene INC: who should i go out w/?
BScene INC: u think so......
Superainbowbrite: its hard
Superainbowbrite: cuz i dont want u guys to fight n then wed lose him 4 evr
BScene INC: i will....not we
Superainbowbrite: yeah, but id feel bad and i w0ouldnt wanna talk to him.,. unless it was mutula
BScene INC: i know.......but idk....
Superainbowbrite: dont date anyone
Superainbowbrite: be single
BScene INC: then ill b breakin 2 hearts
Superainbowbrite: well wait,m did he ask u out yewt
Superainbowbrite: cuz vee and chris liked each other forevr, but they nevr officially went out
BScene INC: no...but weve been talkin bout it
BScene INC: but dont talk bout it w/ him thao
Superainbowbrite: no, y would it
Superainbowbrite: its not my biz
Superainbowbrite: in fact, i dont know abt this
Superainbowbrite: nevr heard abt it
BScene INC: neva heard bout wut
Superainbowbrite: (lol, the whole eli n other guy thing)
BScene INC: ive been tellin u
Superainbowbrite: im saying its a joke, so that i wont tell him
Superainbowbrite: or anybody
BScene INC: oooooo
Superainbowbrite: aka: i kno, but i dont kno
BScene INC: ok...i get it
BScene INC: lmao...i guess
BScene INC: every 1 in the KLAST knows bout this xceps S (kristi, alura, ally, san, tiff)
Superainbowbrite: thats kinda mean, but not in a way
Superainbowbrite: wait.. i hadda say sumthin
BScene INC: i told every1online....and shes nevaonn
Superainbowbrite: n sumthimes, its her parents
Superainbowbrite: cuz once i imed her n it was like, this is sams dad
Superainbowbrite: n i was like woah
BScene INC: i know
Superainbowbrite: look at my profile, do u like the kiss me im irish
BScene INC: i guess
Superainbowbrite: its all messed up, i kno
Superainbowbrite: im fixing it late
Superainbowbrite: GUESS WHAT!?
Superainbowbrite: my contacts ran out so i went to tha doctor n now i only hav clear contacts
Superainbowbrite: u can see my old eye color
BScene INC: HAHAHA
Superainbowbrite: i like them
BScene INC: can u cum 2 my parti
Superainbowbrite: but its weird
Superainbowbrite: hold on
BScene INC: kk
BScene INC: CAN U CUM??!?!!??
Superainbowbrite: i moite havta catch a ride
Superainbowbrite: or is it okay if i come a little early?
BScene INC: fine...u cna c mi room!!!!!
BScene INC: lmao....lfs cin it 2morrow
Superainbowbrite: i wanna see it
Superainbowbrite: well, i can wait a week
BScene INC: lmao...
Superainbowbrite: mite die
Superainbowbrite: each day
BScene INC: 9 DAYZ BDAY COUNTDOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BScene INC: i know.......
BScene INC: betta get mi sumthin...and decorate the loka!!!!!!!!!
Superainbowbrite: u must be excited
Superainbowbrite: ohhh goshness!!!!
Superainbowbrite: i gotta prep
BScene INC: i know...talk 2 tiff shes been plannin since sams b day
Superainbowbrite: itll be easier than hers b/c ur locka is clser to myne
BScene INC: i know...no sneeking
BScene INC: u dont hafta snek round teaches 2 get 2 mi loka
BScene INC: g2g in 5 min
BScene INC: LAURA KISSED A GUY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BScene INC: so now its just u n Tiff...............
BScene INC: that hafta...unless u havent told me sumthin
Superainbowbrite: life sucks
Superainbowbrite: mayube i didnt lol jkjk
BScene INC: no...its pretty good:):):):
BScene INC: :*
Superainbowbrite: quote"cher's saving herself for Luke Perry"
Superainbowbrite: frum clueless
BScene INC: i no
BScene INC: have u or know
BScene INC: sam hasnt either but shes had a bf
BScene INC: Kyle in lyke 2nd grade
Superainbowbrite: does that stuff count?
BScene INC: IDK she thinks it does
Superainbowbrite: cuz like, then i've prolly had a zillion since pre-school
Superainbowbrite: that werent REAL
BScene INC: no....5th grade n on countz
Superainbowbrite: thats what i thought
Superainbowbrite: also, no joke dates
Superainbowbrite: like when i asked people to marry me
BScene INC: lmao.....u asked them
BScene INC: this yr
BScene INC: u asked my bf...............yeah...u did!!!!!!!!!!!
Superainbowbrite: i did!!!
BScene INC: HEY........
BScene INC: well not technically yet...........
BScene INC: still havent decided
BScene INC: but possibly
BScene INC: k...do u have ne thing interesting 2 say
BScene INC: cuz iff not im gunna go
BScene INC: guess thats a no.........
Superainbowbrite: i dont
BScene INC: gunna go daydream of luv YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
Superainbowbrite: i went to da mall
BScene INC: I KOW N GOT GREEN SANDALS
Superainbowbrite: mine were blakc
BScene INC: well...gotta go n try 2 pick a bf.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*
BScene INC: bibi
BScene INC: call me @ 300 2morrow
BScene INC: the machine mite pick up...but leave a message
BScene INC: or dont n ill hate u
Superainbowbrite: ill try to remember
BScene INC: bibi
BScene INC signed off at 11:09 PM
Thursday, February 19, 2004
anywhooooooo.... nuttin goin on herr
Wednesday, February 11, 2004
we're back at the beginning...again... eliaj wants to guess it and i'll keep the results posted::lmao
(to see the previous convo.. scroll doen really far and look at my November Entries...)
i xed.. he'll be back later
ally doesnt really like laura and sam and this week has beeen really weird cuz tiffany told me that ally doesnt like me, but now Ally likes me again and is mad at laura and sam b/c theyre being totally snotty to us and i'm like woah!! confuzzled.. and i've been dealing with this and pms.. and linsdeys bdayy!! yay lindasaeyy!!!!!! plus my show is tomorrow and stuff woahness....i freekin dont know ne more.. i ned a dress n lauren is trying to ruin my lindsey planzz........shizzle
elijah is trying to figure out who i like again and cara is mad cuz i wont tell her.... jeez... life is sooo hard..lol
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
i wish i could explain all the days I havent blogged, but I feel that even I don't understand them.
i made this!
Thursday, February 05, 2004
Updated: 07:52 AM EST
Bush Calls Gay Marriage Ruling 'Troubling'
WASHINGTON (Feb. 5) - President Bush, reacting to a new Massachusetts state court ruling, says a constitutional amendment will be necessary to ban gay marriages if judges persist in approving them.
In a written statement late Wednesday, Bush termed ''deeply troubling'' the decision that same-sex couples in Massachusetts have a right to marry - not just form civil unions - and reiterated a position staked out in his State of the Union speech last month.
''Marriage is a sacred institution between a man and a woman,'' he said in the statement. ''If activist judges insist on redefining marriage by court order, the only alternative will be the constitutional process. We must do what is legally necessary to defend the sanctity of marriage.''
The Massachusetts Supreme Court's advisory opinion that gays are entitled to nothing less than marriage set the stage for the nation's fi1rst legally sanctioned same-sex weddings by the spring.
The issue has the potential to become a hot factor in the presidential campaign.
Massachusetts Sen. John Kerry, the front-runner for the Democratic presidential nomination, said in his own statement: ''I believe and have fought for the principle that we should protect the fundamental rights of gay and lesbian couples - from inheritance to health benefits. I believe the right answer is civil unions. I oppose gay marriage and disagree with the Massachusetts Court's decision.''
Retired Gen. Wesley Clark, another Democratic presidential candidate, said: ''I leave that to the states and the courts - whether you call it a marriage or not, I leave up to the states and churches and synagogues and mosques.''
Bush's statement was similar to his remarks in his Jan. 20 State of the Union address in which he said that if judges ''insist on forcing their arbitrary will upon the people, the only alternative left to the people would be the constitutional process.''
Conservative activists and religious groups, banding together under the name the Arlington Group, gathered in Washington this week to plot strategy. Some participants said they left with a White House commitment to fight for a constitutional amendment.
''We were given direct assurances from the very top,'' said Kelly Shackelford, president of the Texas-based Free Market Foundation. ''There's no doubt. It's our understanding that the president is waiting for a day when there is not a massive news story to do it himself.''
Another group, the Alliance Defense Fund based in Scottsdale, Ariz., sent out an e-mail asserting, ''This morning, President Bush agreed to join the effort to push for the passage of this amendment.''
Tony Perkins, president of the Family Research Council, a leading group of social conservatives, said, ''I would not be surprised at all to see the president come out very soon calling on Congress to act.'' He said he could not speak for Bush but that ''it appears that things are falling in line for that to happen.''
Grover Norquist, president of Americans for Tax Reform and a conservative who is close to the White House, said a constitutional amendment ''is what you'd expect the president to do. ... They are forcing the president's hand - if you say only an amendment can fix this, guess what, you're going to get an amendment.''
White House press secretary Scott McClellan said the administration would review the Massachusetts' opinion.
Recalling Bush's remarks in his State of the Union speech, McClellan said, ''What he said at that time, that if judges continue to force their arbitrary will upon the people, that the only alternative to the people would be a constitutional process. And that remains his view.''
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that just ticks mee off....
Saturday, January 31, 2004
I had a convo w/ Lauren who was pleasantly shocked that I knew that she went to the movies w/o meh. I had the convo to paste and then I xed the convo and somehow it got lost. DARNNIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Saturday, January 24, 2004
Good. You know your music. You should be able to
work at Championship Vinyl with Rob, Dick and
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Monday, January 19, 2004
Ok, soooooo... I've decided to give out site awards because I can..... soo, If you have a site.. email it to firstname.lastname@example.org and I'll check it outt becasue I can.. if I like it, you get an award! yay! ummm... yeayyyy!!!!!
Thursday, January 15, 2004
this my brilliant post!!! ::cheers!::
nevermind.. my song won't download so I can't post unless its on!
Tuesday, January 13, 2004
Listenin: Guster-Amsterdam(remids me of summer.. god, I had soo much fun!)
Eatin or drinkin:
new layout and soon a really good post for the nobody(sobs) who reads this, or for the millions who dont read this..,
Monday, January 12, 2004
Title: So then what happens?
Listenin: Blind Melon-No Rain/ Liz-Phair- Why Can't I
Watching(or was): underworld(my dad is)
Eatin or drinkin: gum(doublement)
Chattin: AM onn!!!
Well, sure I havent updated in a while, but thats okily dokily because I don;t feel like reading the book and tomorrow is the lit class presentation I've worked soo hard on!!I'm nervous b/c me n allison are gonna dance together, lol.. umm. we kinda had a fight and steph is on her side gut on mine too, just cuz i don't like allison a lot and i hate how shes tries to control the group even though I do too, but I am the stage manager. even though theyre sorta fake, me n her kinda head butt on stuff becasue we have a lot of stage experiecne. Ally says we clash b/c our lives are soo different. Like, shes all dancce dance dance and when she gets a bad grade her mother calls up and she passes.. just like that. It's not fair. I have to actually work for my grades. It's also that we're sorta different, like, I hate to sound all snobby and stuff, but she has her friends, but shes not the outcast, but shes not popular. Neither am I, really, but I'm not an outcast.. I'm like, team popular.. the whole team knows me, plus some kids on team A, C, and D. So it could be worse.. i guess. I don;t.. nopee....
Wednesday, January 07, 2004
I think I had a nervous breakdown. then i ate moldy grilled cheese. then my mother called me fat. and the week has gotten worse and all i do at night anymore is cry and I'm not suicidal or depressed or anything along those lines, so DONT be alarmed. I'm just sorta stressed out and everything. I have tests and friends and I wanna have fun and I;m constantly p!$$*d off. I hate voice lessons.. i hate the darn piano and I WANT THE GUITAR to work and nobody will let it!!! I finally got one and it neeeds a sting and to be tuned. Nobody will get me the stuff, so I'm stuck with a crappy guitar........................................
Sunday, January 04, 2004
:::10 Bands You've Seen Live:::
2. Simple Plan(2)
4. Bowling for Soup
:::09 Things You're Looking Forward To:::
2. My hair growing out
3. The day my braces come out
4. My birhtday
5. Going back to school(for social reasons)
6. Going to the mall
7. Going to the movies
8. Briana coming home
9. painting my nails
:::08 Things You Wear Daily:::
1. a hair tie on my wrist
2. jeans?(most of the time)
3. my converse or pumas.
4. cute undies
6. a bra
:::07 Things That Annoy You:::
1. Avril Lavinge
2. Hillary Duff
3. Cat hair
6. The Piano
7. my parents
:::06 Things You Touch Every Day:::
1. my doggie
2. my cats
4. my make-up
5.my friends(hugs, shaking hands)
6. the comp
:::05 Things You Do Every Day:::
2. blog or talk online
3. eat pretzels
:::04 People You'd Want to Spend More Time With:::
4. My gramma
:::03 Movies You Could Watch Over and Over:::
1. Monty Python
2. Ferris Bueler's Day Off
3. Big Trouble
:::02 Of Your Favorite Songs At This Moment:::
1.No Rain- Blind Melon
(with Meglomaniac-Incubus comin colse!!!)
:::01 Person You Could Spend the Rest of Your Life With:::
1. I would like to say briana or veronica or lindsey or some friend. But i cna't. I love you all.... but I could never ever live with onlky one of you.. not ithout killing you so I could hang with another, lol.
Saturday, January 03, 2004
I did it in 3 minutes and 23 seconds.
I deserved an F--!! I suck!
Take the How Dexterous Are You? Quiz
I did it in 9 seconds.
I deserved an A+!!
Take the How Dexterous Are You? Quiz
Friday, January 02, 2004
A-All American Rejects
R-Red Hot CHili Peppers
B-Blues Traveler(just cuz im in tha mood, or it would be Blink 182!!)
Oh! Hit That("offspring!)
Spell out your name with Band Names!
K-knowledge(never hear of them)
T- the strokes(or Thursday for those who will say that "the" doesn't count
Tuesday, December 30, 2003
You are So and So. You're smart. And boys like you.
This makes your friends jealous. You look soooo
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Saturday, December 27, 2003
Title: I REALIZED SOMETHING
Listenin: harder tp breath- maroon 5
Watching(or was): nuttin
Eatin or drinkin: nothin
i realized why i don't care that sally likes andy or did or w/e. It's because I only have a crush... i'm not like in love and i wouldn;t really want to go out with him. Kinda like alex the girl
who in her bio says that she doesn't fall in love easily, just crushes terribly. That's me. I also realized why I need this blog so much in my life. to show my inner emotions and stuff to other people becuase my friends never, ever saw the delicae, poetic, more passionate side of me. All they see is the wild, crazy, insane me that does anything(for a price). Just something i realized...
Wednesday, December 24, 2003
Title: Is That What You Really Think
Listenin: cold-stupid girl/random(radio@aol)
Watching(or was): toons!!!
Eatin or drinkin: nuttin
Chattin: all alone
at the moment, i should be getting dressed for church but i really just HAd to let my emotions out. So, I'll let the first thing go..
I was eading Sally's blog and i read one post about her not liking how she looks and my only expression to it was WTF? becasue I would much rather be like her. She;s so interesting and cool and just, not shy. She's not afraid of her emotions and she says what she wants. I wish I could be like that. And she likes Andy.. well, maybe not now, but she does or did. beyond that, I think he likes her and beyond that, I dont care becasue as long as I help in matching people up, i feel just as good. it's weird, yea I kno.
The next thing i wanted to say was that I was looking through my old diary entries that I used to write and I realized how shallow I am baout people. I don't care. I am me. Merry X-Mas eve. I have 26 minutes to get ready.
today i talked to cara... this is our convo, but i editied her name out. I should edit away my name too, but i doubt anybody i know will find this.. or will they?
cara: srry bout that
cara returned at 1:25 PM
caRA: now u look at tha homepage k?
cara is away at 1:27 PM
Auto response from : Its Christmas time in *tinseltown* again
Superainbowbrite: i forgot to put the AM on
returned at 1:28 PM
cara: sryy i had to pe e
cara: and im confused
cara: y did u im me on aol?
Superainbowbrite: to get the homepage link
Superainbowbrite: i need it
cara : o0o
Superainbowbrite: what is it again becuase the link didnt work
cara: just im it
Superainbowbrite: dont laugh at my word
cara: ill laughin my mind
Superainbowbrite: thats better
cara: i didnt just laugh
cara: i meant to say umm
cara : thats what i meant
cara: do u no mary?
Superainbowbrite: i kno whon she is and I've met her a few times
cara: o0o i see
cara is away at 1:33 PM
Auto response from cara: ~I dont want a lot for christmas there is just one thing i need~ i dont care about the presents underneath the christmas tree~ i just want u for my own~ more then u could ever know~ make my wish come true~ all i want for christmas is YOO~
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i thought that was cool.
i'm signing off for the holidays, which is today and tomorrow. i mite be online, but I won't be updating, probably.
Sunday, December 21, 2003
Title: Commercial Holidays
Today i went to the Target to finish most of my christmas shopping. I only ned a present for Allz and tiffy, but that's beside the point. What I noticed was home commercialized this holiday season has bcome. I mean, really. Once I had all og my items, my mother weant done. She needed a card table. Well, anyway, I was in the CD department, which contained about as many people as it possibly could, and all of them were on cell phones. Not that I condone them, but it was hillarious watching these mothers shout into their phones to hear what the other person was saying. Amoungst that was me, amazed at how commercialized this holiday season had become.. I just thought it was weird.. think about it. and have a merry christmas.
Thursday, December 18, 2003
this was an accident!
Title: What is Your Battle Cry?
"I'm going to brutalize you into the danger zone, then steal your lederhosen!!!"
i havent posted since Tuesday, but I am lazy.., I should be doin my prject, but it can wait.. or at least, I can. So, I scared Andy today... we were talking about our favorite commercials and mine is the tampon commericial where shes all in white, I mean go figure that one, and then she drops it out of the window and uses the stuff to pick it up!! ha ha! lol.. Andy started to make faces while me and Vanessa and Ally quickly talked about the candy wrapper one.. then Andy started to slightly freak out. lol. well, then we did the slightly perverted ws, that involved the words, cleavage, hardened, and streak. We all laughed... the sub didnt get it. haha.. boreed ness... bibi!
Tuesday, December 16, 2003
Title: Andy and Sunny suck!
Listenin: 3 days Grace/ I hate Everything-/whatever video is on next
Watching(or was): Dedicate Live
Eatin or drinkin: Dinner(pasta, soada, brad)
We caught SADDAM!!! YAY!!!! ok..now that thats out of my system..
I have a rant, so I'll start with that becasue I've ben thinking about it recently . Ok.. 2 rants!! woot!
My fisrt rant is just that it really ticks me off that all the punk people act like they know what it's like to be unpopular, but they really never were...except Paul, b/c Ally said everybody used to not liek him.. I've seen pictures... woah! funkyy.... Just wanted to say that.. agree? Post a comment!!
Why do people hate Marilyn MAnson?? Chances are, hes just a normal guy that like to make a certain type of music.. sure he goes out with a porn star.. but who are you to judge? Everyone saus he's ugly, like Neil, but honestly, I would probably marry Mrilyn Manson before I would ever even date Neil. Hes not a looker.. at all..it's not like Paul(who is icky)or even BILLY who have some good qualities and they arent like deformed..
Ok, I'll spare you..
ANDY AND SUNNY SUCK!!
they took my illegal half dollar bill that I loved, the sick not nice words.. I havta do HW.. bbl.
Sunday, December 14, 2003
Watching(or was): n/a
Eatin or drinkin: toothpaste, lol
Chattin: Cola!!! and now julian, who is annoying me(i hate people who are smarter than me) and lauren.. ack!
Friday, December 12, 2003
Title: Fabulous Friday (But really, week or few days or sumthin like that)
Listenin: My mother on the phoenwith my cosuin
Watching(or was): Oprah (grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr)[if u kno me, u kno i HATE oprah with a passion]
Eatin or drinkin: pizza soon
Chattin: away moosagge
thought this was cool. read the post laterrrr.
Tuesday, December 09, 2003
Title: I Feel Good
Watching(or was): Rich GIrls
Eatin or drinkin: non
I am soo mad that tomorrow I have to leave 5th period to go to some dumb show in NY with my gramma. I have no money so shopping will suck becasue my mother will not buy me anything that isn;t for Christmas even though she owes me $32. b/c i gave her 20 for my dance class and I didnt go out that nite. Instead me and veronica played Dream Phone, about 10,00 times and I always won!! Boo Ya!!hehe. I dont know, I feel like everybody is mad at mee... except my friends... On Friday, I want to see if Briana can come over and chill and maybe we'll go to the movies with Veronica or Tiff and me and Bria can go boy chasing. Veronica can't becasue shes attatched. Shane is such a bobo, but I don;t care. I've been talking to andy lately, but not much, but i got to grade his paper today and he graded mine, which is not a big deal. i had to grade lauras too be/c i grabbed his b4 hers and she was mad becasue when i had his she was still writing. ohh shizzle, sumthin bad is gonna happen on Next weeks Rich Girls. Oh nopers!!! I gtg.. time for bed!
Wednesday, December 03, 2003
Title: Vaness is tha coolest! ha!
Listenin: random stuff off of No Doubt:Greatest Hits
Watching(or was): the news
Eatin or drinkin: i just had dinner
Chattin: nobody, everyones away, eating!
I think Vanessa is very cool as of now. well, like 3 dyas of go. same thing. ya kno. Cuz I always ask her who shes listening to, right? yeah. okay, so I've got my headphones on and andys right there and im jokin with Tiff Tiff. So, Vanessa asks what I'm lsitenin to. So I'm like Led Zepplin(rox my sox[thats the weirdest thig I've ever said]). and Andy says something about led zepplin being his icon, so im like whats ur im? soooo, now i kno. but i already did, from the sally's blog, but who cares? not me. i guess. and today was dull. i had drama and I know all my lines! yay! i didnt havta go during HAP, so i was glad. then, um, i told gabby, andy and billy about Lindseys beloved Quik Chek call. ha! just thinking of that makes me crack up! ummmm... i need a new sn. yeah. so, email me if ya have sugg. or post them. i read the comments! insanely. i wish YOU would post soemthing. i will never forget when lindsey called HOOTERS either!
Saturday, November 29, 2003
Title: I hate Mrs. Pappas and if she ever read this(and I hope she does) she should realize that everybody hates her and wishes she would leave us poor children alone because, life may be tough, but Satan's nicer than Mrs. Pappas
Watching(or was): nada.. Pappas has some dumb report due soon, maybe she should try tellling us the due dates and how to do the report.
Eatin or drinkin: water- maybe some coffee soon, thank God I don't drive, I'd be killing people.
Chattin: nobody, but my mommy just got home and now I'm going to vent on her instead of the blog, I think.
Wednesday, November 26, 2003
Listenin: the dawgie
Watching(or was): just got back from school!
Eatin or drinkin: un, but soon.. PIZZA BAGELS!
so I told Chris that Veronicua said yes after school because Iw as getting tire of waiting. then he pinchd me.... ow.. we played the car game today. ery exciting. hugay-nez calls!
Tuesday, November 25, 2003
Title: let's play a joke
Watching(or was): Real World/ Rich Girls
Eatin or drinkin: nun
I wanna play a phone tap on Veronica about Chris.It would be great. I would tell her that I was writing an email to her and it got sent to everyone except HER!! ha!! That would be great. It would have been sent even to just her parents! I just havta wait until they go out. YES!!!!
Eatin or drinkin:
will fill in later.. doin layout!!!!!!!
Monday, November 24, 2003
Listenin: 12:51- The Strokes/ Best of Me- the starting line/ The Voice WIthin- Christina A.
Watching(or was): Fear Factor- oh yeah!
Eatin or drinkin: cough drop
Chattin: gabby, but my AM is on
Guess what!?!?!?! Veronica said YES!!! SHE SAID YES!!!!!! but i have to keep it on the "dl"(aka down low). of curze, I told like a hillion zillion people today, so I will have to update them. I mean, you may say I'm a bad friend, but everybodys been waiting for them to gt together, so, its not really a secret. we all knew it was gonna happen. So I'm very spastical and I havta change the unky-ma bobber mood thingy...so, yeah. i had fun today. I sang the sweater song in the hallway. Ally thinks im crazy. Julian thinks I'm even crazier. Thy stole my camera. The sickos!
Great story. Today in SS, Chris goes to the b/r and Andy's waiting, right? So Chris comes back and he says
"mrs. S, can I hav my pass back. I didn't go to the bathroom."
so she's says "why not?>"
"well, these kids in the hall said theres a mouse in there"
SO mrs. Schilder sends Chris AND andy, holding hands to the bathroom. So they come back, and I'm like, did you see the little mousie??
so then Andy says "there was no mouse! some 6th graders told Chris that and he believed them!" so everybody cracks up adn now2 I wish I still had that dumb stuart little car to scare people with. I loved that thing! It kicked bootay.
Well, back to veronica, yeah. I'm really happy for her. yay!!! I can't, well I actulally can, but I don;t believe shes really gonna lie to the parental unit, after she put up the big fight for like a year about it. She's making me soo proud!!! **sobs** It's like somebody;s getting married. lol. soo anyway, I havta go to the group blog, so yeah
Sunday, November 23, 2003
Listenin: the telly
Watching(or was): i have no clue
Eatin or drinkin: nutin, just came back from lunch
Chattin: nobody, everyones away...:(
have to call veronica and then i'll update. just wanted to be here and ummmm... stuff.
Title: tired, but here
Listenin: Buddy Holly-Weezer/ Undone-The Sweater Song- Weezer
Watching(or was): nuttin
Eatin or drinkin: nuttin
today i didn't get to ask Vee about her decision because I was in Princeton. i got a weezer cd(blue), a princeton sweater, and some pumas!! cool beans, as Mich would say. Veronica freaked out when I told her Andy picked me for Science. I didnt see it as a biggie, because I was the only cool person left, i mean, he could've picked Stephanie, who is uber popular, or Vanessa, but I was the kinda logical choice. Like, he would know me and Steph would work, but iono. In computers, Billy called Briana the "trow-up" girl. Then we talked about Lesbians. lol. I watched Death to Smoochy. It was okay. I liked it, but a little to graphic in the men's downstairs area, lol. I got an unky moood, which i thought was neat. i'm special because I got a lotta stuff today, I had fun, I didnt tell anyone veronicas secret, I pierced my ears(the hole closed up adn I shoved an earing through, with a lotta blood), adn I flirted with Andy on friday. I suck at flirting. I really do. I don;t know how. but hye, w/e. i made my dad a KazAa cd. I want a new layout. Ummm I'm tired and I need a shower to nix the pink hair(hot head). 'm going to the evening of giving tomorrow(prolly). I hope I see someone I know. I doubt it, but if I see umm.. someone, I don;t kno. Shane's better, i think. He hasn't beejn very manic depressive. elijah wants to kno the veronica story and Stephie's mad that Step Cava thought she was lebanese last year. I want to play guitar adn I might get to play next year!!! yay!!!!!!!!!! Once I can read music really well and play piano with two hands really good, I can!!! I am really excited, but I am also thinking., I'm getting mall money for Christmas and if they'res a guitar store there, I am buying one. Hopefully, I'll have enouygh. Better vaccuum for extra so by Christmas. Steph reccomends an accoustic. Her paretns are making her play. not really, but they want her to, since she plays violin. I wanna play!!! well, yeah. my goals in life are tpo speak 4 languages: english, spanish, french and latin
to play 3 1/2 instruments: bass guitar, guitar, piano, drums(becasue theyre guitars, but kinda different)
to pass pre-algebra with an A average and be a singer, dancer and actress. The dancing part, farfetched, verY!!
BUT I AM TIRED!! AND sMELLY! LOL. shower time!!!
Saturday, November 22, 2003
Listenin: Bigger Than My Body- John Mayer
Watching(or was): Carnivale/ Death to Smoochy
Eatin or drinkin: nuttin, but i am hungry
Chattin: on my dad's sn, noone
Friday, November 21, 2003
Listenin: Idiot B/F- Jimmy Fallon/ I Believe in a Thing Called Love- The Darkness
Watching(or was): sumthin
Eatin or drinkin: nun
okay, so you heard the exciting news!!!! I know, its great. We've all been waiting for this and now no one's allowed to say anything. eep!! He asked her in a note, adn technically she hasnt said "yes" YET. But shes prolly is and if she says no, I'll never talk to her again. THis is soo hard to keep!!! AACK!!!!!!!! yay!!!! I am sooo excited. More than all the funny stuff that me, Tiff, Gabby, Ally, Bully, Brian, and everyone did during HAP. Which involved a great discussion about Mrs. Schilders not real "affairs" with Mr. Haj, Mr. Wares, and Mr. Janeska! and another about somethign not that nice. And I got "punk'd" by Tiffany. I'll get her back. Tahts the thingy for yearbok with embarassing pcs of people for yearbook. It's cool. I have on of Veronica taken by Chris. can't stop laughing. Trying to breath, but my new haricut, super short for me, keeps falling in my giggling face. eep!! school like sentences. I have to put the dog out, but before I go, Veroncia n Chris played footsie on the bus!!!!!!
Title: I Knew It Would Happen Sooner or LAter
Listenin: Breathe- Mich Branch/ Drive Away- All Amer. Rejects
Watching(or was): news
Eatin or drinkin: nuttin
okay, so here's the news...it's not exactly official yet, but Veronica and Chris are going out! dads comin bbl!!!!
ok, so I ahve some of the bestest news I have ever heard in my life. BEST EVER!!!!!!!!!!!! Firstly, I staret with my new blog thing, so I show you how it will go.
Title: soo happy
Listenin: Amsterdam- Guster
Watching(or was): Indie Thrillers
Eatin or drinkin: Nothin
okay, that said.. I have to load that and when I do, I will tell you the great news!!!!!
Thursday, November 20, 2003
Yes, I know I haven't updated in ages, but life has been soo amazingly busy. I have clubs and assignments for them, pics for YB, articles for Newspaper, and liunes for Drama, which I still havent memorized. Plus, I am sick, but I can't be absebnt because I wanna go out on Friday, which means going to Dance class, not the sucky school dance that Veronica wants to go to. Shes soo weird. Plus, when you have a suicidal friend, a bunch of arguing ones, and normal ones, life is tough. I am soo tired and stuff for me is soo hard. I laugh and pretend, but It's not okay. Not at all. I mean, I'm not suicidal, I saw a coo, quote:
"Sometimes I want to die, but I'm afraid of Death:
Makes sense, like, I know things will be better soon, but I am just really stressed right now but I think this is helping, If only I had more time.
Also, today I read a great bit by Alex(www.alexthegirl.com) from the mailing list. She just makes such amazing snse about how great growing up is. I guess I want to be mroe liek her, too, but I'm not smart, nice or graceful, I want to be, but I;m me and I guess thats as good as it gets.
The other day in Lit, I was out of my seat when the teacher started to yella t us. So I went to fun to my seat and fell over and hurt my arm. Ouch! Yesterday(from that day) Laura did the same anhd today Kemaly did the same. it's really weird funny and embarassing.
I hadda go to the nurse and I told Eunice hew I like adn she kinda likes Paul. OMG!!! Paul got his sced changes, so I have no more classes with Paul. :'( I'll miss them cuz hes funny. Umm. in science today, we had to pick our partners and Andy picked me, but then Mr. Wares decided to change the groups anyway, so... yeah. ummm... i had sumthin else tosay, but iono. we. I have to take a nap before I faint, so bibi!!
Monday, November 17, 2003
Today, while skimming blogs, I found this post and I like it alot. Visit this person @:
This is how it went:
I feel like I'm living some kind of double life. I enjoy University, I like some of the stuff I learn, I like the independance. I like my city, I like cosmopolite. I like realizing that my friendships are more than just convenience friendships.
This is kind of where the double life comes in. I keep thinking of my old friendships as more valid and more important as my new ones. Because I know these people really well and adore them. And they know me almost inside out. They don't need alcohol in them to be absolutely insane and love fun and laughing no matter what anyone thinks. Here, I wouldn't even consider holding hands with someone and skipping through the mall. And this weekend when we did that at home, we made some peoples' days. Because we were loving life, who cares if we look like idiots.
I'm trying to teach myself how to be alone. How to have fun when people aren't there. Because I've been living my life from one event with people to the next. I forget that I'm still LIVING when I'm by myself, and those minutes count too. And just waiting around and thinking of the next time I'll see my old friends or go out with my new friends is not very useful.
Also, wishing I was back at home, and thinking that those people are my REAL friends, and these people are my temporary friends, four years until I get to see my old ones more often, is bad and stupid.
I want to live in the now. It's just hard, because the then was so often. But I know that I have to live a full life. I can have a life where I keep in touch with all the people in my life, live in the now, and not wish I was in the past. I know I can, I just don't know how. And I'm not going to make friends here to the calibre I did at home if I just wish I was with my old friends. I need to love everyone. From everywhere. I need to re-find myself, somehow I got a little bit lost in the move.
I need to find people here to love. I need to just LOVE. That's how I find happiness.
I kinda agree. I like TIff and Ally and everyone, but like, woah, Briana and I will always have more fun than I could have with them because we'll be morons EVERYWHERE!
Sunday, November 16, 2003
this is a really dumb blog to have comments on. I mean, nobody reads it and if i put it out therr, it mite get into the wrong hands!
I went to see Radio with Ally and LAura the other nite. We saw Steph Cava there. She looked kinda shocked that I was there. She was with Erica and Malika. I wonder what would happen if they knew Steph stuffed her bra. That would be funny!!!!umm.. we saw RADIO, which was soo good!! I loved it. But it was so sad, I hysterically crited for almost the whole movie.
Went to Philly
ya know, it mite explain him wanting to know who I liked, which Veronica knows and Tiffnay has successfully guessed, but we own't tell her. Is it really that obvious?
Saturday, November 15, 2003
i think, THINK
elijah likes me... ew.. He's like one of my best guy friends, again, makes me think of Aj.
Thursday, November 13, 2003
Ok, so I haven't updated in ages, but I mean, why post if nothing really happened. I am at my grammas house and it is gonna b so frigging boring. I'm listening to Led Zepplin, which is cool. I like classic rock. I'm trying to d/l AIM, but this comp is so gosh darn slow that it takes like a half hour, where as on any other comp it would take 5 minutes. On mine, it takes 2 seconds, but we hav Broadband. Yeah, I guess these aren;t exciting secrets, but I don;t know. don't care. I could post my faied flirting attempts. I'm not bold. I am very shy. People never guess that, but I am. Like, I can make tons of friends, like, Andy. or Shane or Elijah. Or SUnny and Aditya. Or Aubrey and Brian. Like AJ(from drama) says"I don;t know what it is about me, but I can alwasy make friends with girls". Like mine is kinda more general. I cna makie firends anywhere. But I am very shy at flirtung. Like becasue I'd rather have a regular convo with the person. Like today, me and Andy were talking about ummm... hey arnold. and he does kinda look like him, if we enlarged his head and spiked his hair with a tiny hat. lol. Yeah...... well, tomorrow we have a class trip and i have the loser bus. It isn;t like the "bobo" bus frum gettysburg, which had the cool people on it and was fun, it was just for people with, like, Asthma and stuff. This bus has my ghetto hr and Mrs. Pappas, who is the Spawn of Satan, or Mrs. Gurtovs "daughter". lol. My mom thought I was serious. Write later!! Aim's almost done!!
Monday, November 10, 2003
This is the convo b/w me and Elijah, who cannot figure put who I like, although he did guess it liek 100 times, but I said no! hahah!!
elijahy15: sorry for messin with u:-(
elijahy15: why are u messin with me i am sayin sorry
elijahy15: do u forgive me?
Superainbowbrite: only if u hav some good gossip
elijahy15: i like someone
Superainbowbrite: tell me
Superainbowbrite: and I'll forgive
elijahy15: lol that was my sister
Superainbowbrite: can i have some gossip now?
elijahy15: what were u about to say when
elijahy15: my sis said that?
elijahy15: lol. i don't u know/
elijahy15: do u like anyone
Superainbowbrite: like I'd tell
Superainbowbrite: only Veronica knos
Superainbowbrite: and she wont tell
elijahy15: what do i have to do to find out?
Superainbowbrite: guess and maybe I'll tell ay
elijahy15: if i guess right will u tell me?
Superainbowbrite: then u'll hav to guess
Superainbowbrite: that is wrong, dirty and disguisting
elijahy15: r u sure?
Superainbowbrite: i swear im tellin the truth
Superainbowbrite: he's to good A friend
elijahy15: do i know him/
elijahy15: is he in honors lit?
Superainbowbrite: MAYBE SOO
elijahy15: is he in team B
Superainbowbrite: most likely\
elijahy15: does he play a sport?
Superainbowbrite: i dont kno
Superainbowbrite: im not a stalker
elijahy15: lol. is he in one of ur classes?
elijahy15: is he in our lunch class?
elijahy15: is he/
elijahy15: do people call him Ludacris or Mr. Wiggles?
Superainbowbrite: i dont think soo
elijahy15: does he sit near u in lunch?
Superainbowbrite: i domnt know wher ppl sit6
Superainbowbrite: im not a stalkeer
elijahy15: can u get a guess of what type of music he listens to?
elijahy15: does he have spiked hair?
Superainbowbrite: and if i did it would be obvious
Superainbowbrite: (no was the hair)
Superainbowbrite: so anytning else?
elijahy15: does he know your friends?
Superainbowbrite: some, maybe, i guess
Superainbowbrite: lets guess ppl? ok?/
Superainbowbrite: thats worse than shane
Superainbowbrite: im sorry
Superainbowbrite: hes nice and all
Superainbowbrite: but no
Superainbowbrite: austin isnt in our lunch.. durr!!
elijahy15: he isn't?
Superainbowbrite: of curze ur wrong keep goin
elijahy15: i know
Superainbowbrite: AGAIN.. LIKE mIKE, TOO GOOD A FRIEND
Superainbowbrite: hes white
elijahy15: Chris Rosenburg?
Superainbowbrite: kno.. just gonna pretend
Superainbowbrite: wrong im
Superainbowbrite: c'mon keep it cummin
Superainbowbrite: kyle who??
Superainbowbrite: do we have a final guess?
elijahy15: no give me a detail?
Superainbowbrite: to torture
elijahy15: i know him, he is in our lunch, and he is white. am i correct?
Superainbowbrite: and i will not tell::
Superainbowbrite: his eye color(which i am unsure of)
Superainbowbrite: and his hair color
Superainbowbrite: cuz itd be obvious
elijahy15: name some people who are not it
Superainbowbrite: umm.. all the ppl you guessed, except for one
Superainbowbrite: cuz u guessed it!! hahaha!!
elijahy15: one who i didn't say yet?
Superainbowbrite: you guessed... i liee
elijahy15: u sure?
elijahy15: r u?
elijahy15: i won't tell.my mouth is sealed
Superainbowbrite: like I'd tell anyway
Superainbowbrite: but we can guess some morenad maybe I'll change my mind
Superainbowbrite: or I'll have to go on to the roof and scream it
elijahy15: Shane isn't it
elijahy15: i won't tell
elijahy15: it is Shane isn't it?
elijahy15: give me one more hint;-)
Superainbowbrite: he has a nose
elijahy15: a good one.
elijahy15: one that will help a little even the slightest
Superainbowbrite: it will
Superainbowbrite: becasue you've said his name
elijahy15: is it him
Superainbowbrite: ur still wrong
Superainbowbrite: although, Andy does have a nose
Superainbowbrite: he also has a nose
elijahy15: Michael H.
Superainbowbrite: he has a small nose
elijahy15: u sure?
Superainbowbrite: my gramma lives in the 40's
elijahy15: then the only one left is Brian
Superainbowbrite: u guessed a lot more ppl
Superainbowbrite: and no
Superainbowbrite: and either way...
Superainbowbrite: i'm still not telling
elijahy15: if i guess right u said u would tell me
Superainbowbrite: i said i might
elijahy15: thats it u like paul
Superainbowbrite: paul hates emo
Superainbowbrite: i love emo
elijahy15: what's that?
Superainbowbrite: a type of muci
Superainbowbrite: and to like sombody, I have to have a similar taste of music with them
elijahy15: i said everyone twice already
Superainbowbrite: big woop
Superainbowbrite: can u send the whole convo to me?
Superainbowbrite: i want it for my blog
Superainbowbrite: just select all and copy
Superainbowbrite: then email it to super...@aol.com
elijahy15: why do u want it for blog?
Superainbowbrite: for reference
elijahy15: r u writing a book about something?
Superainbowbrite: yeah, a book about the pyeah, a book about the person I like
Superainbowbrite: just to prove how good a liar i am
elijahy15: no i won't then unless u tell me who u like
Superainbowbrite: send it firstg
elijahy15: i am not stupid tell me and i will send it
Superainbowbrite: you swear?
Superainbowbrite: ther told ya
Superainbowbrite: \or i cna tell you in kristi talk
elijahy15: no cheater. tell me in English
Superainbowbrite: i'll tell ya
Superainbowbrite: gidtcz t.
Superainbowbrite: its kristi code
Superainbowbrite: and few understand
Superainbowbrite: i dotn say inpublic places
elijahy15: u can tell me and when u get the copy take out hte part off who u like
Superainbowbrite: the blog knows
Superainbowbrite: ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
elijahy15: u can edit it out. just do that
Superainbowbrite: the blog knows who i like
Superainbowbrite: its on therr
Superainbowbrite: i just want the convo
elijahy15: so if u tell me it's no big deal
Superainbowbrite: its a biggi
elijahy15: tell me then please?
elijahy15: then u don't get the convo
Auto response from Superainbowbrite: Elijah will never know....
elijahy15: i will give it to now
Tuesday, November 04, 2003
okay, I had this totally amazing, stunning post. It was deep, thoughtful, articualte.. adn then the stupid computer screwed up and lost it all!!! I was soo mad! I hav e to go to bed soon, so I'll put on some Dashboard and type fast. lol.
Lately, I ahve been listening to emo adn realied that it has changed me and that I love it. Just because it made me realize I'm deeper than the average me that is sarcastic and funny. I mean, I love to laugh, buyt I laugh so much that I completely lost the sensitive side. SO... I really want to try to go back to writng poetry. Really. I used to and w/o being conceited, it was pretty good, for a little kid. So I wanna try to go back that. Becasue it might make me more deep. I want to be serious and laughable. I love that amazing feeling. Like Dashboard COnfessional. Great Emo. It's so amazingly deep I lose myself in the lyrics. Norah Jones is another amazing artist. She just pours it all out into the piano, which I could never do. I am so afraid of being rejected by people becasue I'm not used to it. I know my real friends would never ditch me but who are my real friends? I mean, I know I have a lot of great friends, but who would go and ditch me for the populars? I mean, I understand you want to ahng out with ppl that have your interests, but when they don't it drives me insane. I mean, I've had a lot of decietful friends, that I won;t go into, but you always have to wonder. I knwo the only people that are my BFFAEAEAEAE...are Briana and Veronica just becasue I have so much trust in them that they have in me and I feel bad when I lie to them so I can always ttell them stuff and they tell me. I love it. But just, there's LAuren. She's being mean and rude to be popular. I mean, I know she lost A LOT of weight, but now she's so frigging obnoxious about it. She's like lecturing me about it, and I don;t really care, okay? I'm chibby. If I wante dto excersize I would. I really wanna be more actice, so I will psuh myself to be. But shes bein so annoyign about it and she jsut always ditches us. I feel most sorry for Lindsey because unlike the rest of us, she can't ditch Lauren. It'd be like me ditching Veronica or Briana. I'd feel bad. Steph Cava also pisses me off a ton. Shes back being my friend, lol!! She pulled a Lauren, but Kelsey and Gaby, Steph, Sally, Amanda, ect.. all caught on and told her becasue they're nice and knew what she was doing, jsut a little to late.
I guess that's enough ranting for now...I'll but my lyrics to my fav song on before I go:
Hands Down by Dashboard Confessional!
Breathe in for luck,
breathe in so deep,
this air is blessed,
you share with me.
This night is wild,
so calm and dull,
these hearts they race,
from self control.
Your legs are smooth,
as they graze mine,
we're doing fine,
we're doing nothing at all.
My hopes are so high,
that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me,
so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury,
or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.
The words are hushed lets not get busted;
just lay entwined here, undiscovered.
Safe in here, from all the stupid questions.
"hey did you get some?"
Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't hear...
so we can get some.
My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.
Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember,
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
the dim of the soft lights,
the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers
and the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
and this walk that we shared together.
The streets were wet
and the gate was locked so I jumped it,
and let you in.
And you stood at the door with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like you meant it.
And I knew that you meant it,
that you meant it,
that you meant it,
and I knew,
that you meant it,
that you meant it.
I long for that. It;s such a great song. Nity Night!!
Monday, November 03, 2003
Let's Begin, I guess.../
well, anyway, since no-one is really on-line adn nobody is home to call or come over.. I might as well get started on my blogging of secrets.. yahp. SECRETSSSSSSS..oooooooooooooooooooo.......
umm. yeah. Today I was banned from the Degrassi site for abuse. I didn't do anything, but it happens sometimes. I hate that. Then I can't check my "d-mail". I want to becasue simplegirl4u(random degrassi person) is having some boy trouble(ditto to me) and I am supposed to help her. Funny isn't it? That I can give out dating advice thats practically perfect(knock on wood) but have never had a boyfriend/ honestly pathetic. I guess its odd. Mainly because I'm not as gutsy as my advice. Tell him. Go ahead. Yeah right. If I ever, EVER did that and he didn't like me, I'd friggin die of embarassment. ANother big mistake I made was telling V who I liked. I trust her, I mean, she tells me everything and I'll get to that stuff later. But I can't bring myself to tell her anything half of the time. I mean, I hate letting people know. The only person I tell is Briana becasue she goes to a different school and the stuff would never get out. I trust Veronica a lot because I she tells me everything, but I can't tell ehr about some "girl issue". I don;t know. I guess I am really weird. Well, anyway, I happend to have told her that I like so and so, okay, I'll be honest. Andy.. i mean,m there has to be like a thousand million andy's in the world and in NJ so nobody will really know this is me.. or will they. I don;t knwo. I am a very paraniod person. Whatever, lol. So anyways, I like him. He doesn;t like me, yet??? I dunno. I am a bad flirter... ut I can dream and maybe just maybe somebody remotely normal that showers/bathes and is somewhat intelligent(somebody with even just Paul'sm intelligence will do) will like me. But i doubt it. Whatever//
Oh! Beat this girlfriends... This is my blog and its got secrets and some lies with my sarcasm and smartness most people never see.. like my John Mayer weakness, okay, A LOT of people know that, but anyways....yeah. I'm gonna go find a layout and then I'l;l get on with da good stuff abybee.... and if ya ever wanna discuss my secrets, email me, but nothing dirrtay!!